I am diagnosed because bipolar using severe depression/stress.  At times, the pressure is a very crippling thing.  There are days that I be able to simply handle doing one thing at a period.  If you add going to the store, crowds of citizens, commotion, loud traffic or personal relationships, things become very not easy to cope with. 

One big thing I have been able to accomplish inside the last few years is not taking it out on other public when I am so stressed out.  It's possible that I am able to refrain from doing that partly since I try to stay away from people because much as likely.  Living by myself accomplishes most of that, but it's ever a special thing I have learned to do and it comes from an action that is called being responsible. 

After I started receiving Veterans Administration Disability, it was very hard managing my money.  Well, I went through this for about four years.  Then, I guess I got tired of it.  It started appealing to me to be comfortable because opposed to spending cash frivolously.  This special newly acquired trait of being responsible soon spread higher than to other aspects of my life. 

I started paying more notice to my children as far as the principal things are concerned, even though I deeply affected them inside a negative way prior to my getting help eight years ago.  I have come to the realization that the best and simply way I can improve them from at this moment on is by the example I set with the rest of my life.  That awakening and the one regarding not taking my hardships out on other citizens helped me to stop justifying my negative measures or words that I thought were the result of someone else's actions or words directed toward me. 

I guess if I had to wrap it each up into one word, I couldn't.  It means extra using two words….."being responsible".  When we all turned eighteen we became (officially) our self's own individual.  It didn't matter whether we had the most perfect parents of every time or whether they were just human ones who made mistakes.  We were who we were, a confused person with together negative and positive qualities and probably unaware at the era of how to retain the positive and discard the negative. 

It is a shame that if we are lucky, twenty years later we may perhaps see the light when our children are resenting us as we made mistakes being a parent.  Following eighteen years of age there is no one responsible for you but you.  You may possibly try to hide from that reality your whole life, but you will never in reality be happy.